The more “silence” became an integral part of my life since childhood, the more I asked myself why I found it so difficult to express myself and speak out. I grew up in a home where my siblings and parents were always chattering away. My mother, in particular, talks constantly – to living beings and non-living things alike. She can be found speaking to pets, people, her cooking vessels, or anything else in front of her. My sisters were often up to mischief, and they’d blame me to escape my father’s beatings. I also felt intensely that I did not belong in my family, even though there was a sense of familial relationship.
A feeling of belonging to a physical space, saying, “This is my space, these are my people, this is my body”, is never easy for those experiencing dysphoria with their assigned gender. Yet, with some effort, even in spaces where a person is not accepted or allowed to express themselves, they can find something to claim as their own. It took me years to make my body my own, to feel a sense of belonging to both my body and my mind. It is sad that sometimes even...
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